It’s that time of year again, time to sit in front of a computer and try to write. NaNoWriMo 2019 has officially begun! Can you feel it? The exhilaration, the joy, the doubt in ones sanity for doing this all over again? Isn’t it grand?
As I write this, quickly may I add, I’m at work. I had the misfortune to be sent overnight for a couple of nights. When I saw the schedule a few weeks ago, I’ll admit that I was annoyed. However I couldn’t complain too much. I just came back from my vacation. I went to Orlando for the first time. I got on an airplane for the first time as well. I don’t like flying, but that’s a story for another time.
So instead of being in front of my computer at home, I’m on my lunch break, wishing I knew what I was going to write. I have no clue. No basic idea of a story. My creativity has deserted me. It’s been like this for a couple of years. I feel bone dry.
That’s not going to stop me! I’ll press on, stiff upper lip and all that jazz. Something will come to me, hopefully before I get off at six in the morning. I can’t let this be the year I lose. I just can’t! I’ve won every year since I started back in 2011. My pride is on the line. My ego will not allow me to fail. Failure is not an option!
All the same, I am concerned that I haven’t written in ages. Maybe I’ve become too complacent in my life. I was writing up a storm when my life was one huge storm. Writing was my coping mechanism. Now I’m in an okay place in my life. No love life to speak of, but that’s probably a good thing. I’m a bit of a mess when I’m in love.
Love bites! Hopefully creativity will bite as well. I’ll let you know.