We are now halfway through the month of November, which means Nanowrimo is halfway over with. This is the first time I’ve been this far ahead and it’s a nice change for me. As of this writing, I’m sitting at 36,583 words and par is 26,672. I’m almost 10k words ahead with a six day buffer.
The story hasn’t been easy to write. In fact, the first half is a complete disaster. It’ll require a complete rewrite when I’m through, but that can wait. I gave up and stated the second part of the story, and it’s flowing a little bit easier.
To give a quick summary of the book, my main character was kicked out of her house when she came out as trans by her homo/transphobic father. Part one follows my main character (M.C.) as she tries to grapple with what it means to be trans, and the beginning of her transition to becoming Lorena, all without the support of her family.
Book two returns some fourteen years later. She has fully transitioned and is doing well professionally, has gotten married, and has started a family. Then in quick succession, her mother comes back into her life with news about her father’s illness, and then an former friend comes back with news that her son, someone the M.C. went to school with, is in the hospital, clinging to life, his wife dead, and their children injured.
My M.C. has to revisit her painful past as she tries to come to terms with her abandonment issues. She is made to attempt to reconnect with a family that disowned her before her father dies. At the same time, she is trying to repair a friendship so she can be there in their time of need.
She is confronted with feelings of betrayal and neglect, as well and coming to terms with what it means to be Catholic while being transgender. There’s a lot going on as she tries to shuffle her familial responsibilities, her responsibility in running her own business, and trying to forgive those who abandoned her when she was at her most vulnerable.
I don’t know it everything will work out. I may have to edit some plot lines out, but the gist of it is how complicated life can be, and how everything seems to happen all at once, seemingly out of nowhere, at a time when one’s life finally comes together.
I’m not entirely sure what’s going to happen, or how anything will resolve. I was surprised by a scene I just wrote about my M.C. meeting with her mother over a late lunch, after a disastrous first attempt at reconciling with her father. A lot of surprises came out of that, plot points that I hope will survive because I think it explains why her mother didn’t fight for my M.C. as she was kicked out of the family.
Family dynamics are hard enough without the added complications of religion, bigotry, and coming out as transgender. Her family was not up to the task and while some relationships may be mended, some may not be as fortunate.
The more I write about Lorena, the more I admire and love her. She didn’t let being abandoned keep her from creating a life of her own. She started out as inept and incapable of taking care of herself, and she blossomed into someone who gained control of her own destiny. She has an inner strength that I know we all wish we could have, and it’s tested to the limits.
She may break, but the question is will she come back together again?